3rd day, sem 3

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Friday is the last day for Add and Drop session.

I woke up from bed with liitle bit dizzy and warm.perhaps,i've cry a lot for last couple days.
Actually, i didnt planned to see AA today as i getting give up. i get ready myself by 8.30 am although my class start by 10am. I asked FH if she can accompany to AMF Hall.

ni pegi sbb mdm math yg beria2 suruh tukar grup.she said just try again.

ya..my math mdm was right.i went  to math counter and asked if i can changed my group.she said yes.i was very happy.but i've to search the group alone.unlucky for me, none of group was tally to my table..

i went to chemistry counter..also i got the same answer.yes,i can changed my group.she little bit pity with me.i searched which group tally to my table.i got group 162.this is my previous group for sem 1..happy x terkata.. quickly, i call HS and told her i got her group.she also happy.

then, i was told by my new friends for physics tht their suddenly have to change to another group. i rushed to physics counter and begging to my lecturer (he is Head of Department Physics). he said tht it is up to AA.i begging again to AA and Alhamdulillah...again,i search the group.this time i got my roomate group.majority for this group is sisters.i was not in afraid anymore..

next,i went to english counter.again  i searched the group.and i got my previous group english for last semester.

everything going well.i went to computer lab for register online.and now officially i've changed my group.except for math.i never mind for this bcoz mdm math quite friendly..

at the end of this, i get tired.ke sana, ke sini, uruskn sume ni.alhamdulillah...i'll not cry anymore.

MORAL STORY: Allah is the best planners. He know best for you.Just be patient and never give up!!~

~tenx to FH.tired kn.da belanja nasi ayam da..hehe

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2nd day, sem 3

Bismillahirahmanirrahim...

Again..my lecturer suggest to me to change my group.she said tht she understand if i'm not feeling comfortable with the guys..owh ya..this morning, i headed to AMF Hall where AA was there.the result was negative.i still have to stay with my group. Luckily, for pyhsics, another 2 sisters coming as they add fz 2.but for physics only.my happiness just for a while.i keep telling myself tht Allah want to teach me something.must be a Hikmah for all of this.

*And (the unbelievers) plotted and planned, and Allah too planned, and the best of planners is Allah. (Surah Al-Imran, 54)

Yes.Allah the best planners for all of this. these some qoutes tht my friends pm me..they really good friends.support me when i felt.tenx guys.insyaAllah, ukhuwah till jannah.

" Strenght does mot come from winning. your struggles develop your strenght. when you go through hardship and decide not to surrender, that is strenght-mahatma gandhi."

" godaan hidup di kampus sangatlah mencabar, namun di kampus jugalah mendatangkan ilmu, tarbiah dan pengalamn yang sungguh hebat bagi orang yang bijak.Hamlatul Quran,kau luar biasa.Selamat berjuang-Us. Hasanah MTS"

" Kekuatan kita adalah hak mutlak Allah.kita memang x kn punya daya melainkn dengan izinNya...andai saat ini kekuatan kita hilang, maka pohonlahkepada pemilik kekuatan, mintalah kepada Raja Yang Tak Pernah Lemah.."

" kehidupan dunia tanpa cabaran dan dugaan, tiada nilainya..ada ketika, dugaan dan cabaran membuatkn iman kita bertambah dan kita juga di kurniakn kelebihan dan kekurangan tetapi setiap kekurangan, jika dipandang dari sudut yang berbeza,pasti ia adalah satu kelebihan..Be Strong"

many more.tired enough to type this..just back from my class..again. i'm the only sister in class~

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1st day, sem 3

Bismillahirahmanirrahim...

starting this sem with a little doubt..as i'm the only sister in class..ya..really..

this morning,i try to be positive. i step into class as nobody in class.i'm waiting for lecturer..then,brothers keep coming.i didnt feel nervous or scary at all bcoz i already know all the brothers.yet,they are the same brothers during short sem.

lecturer is coming and we taaruf as usual.what cn i said tht,this lecturer "sgt bekeng"..from her face and her talk prove my theory.

return from class, fh has waiting me.we had planned to met after our class finish. i went to engine department to consult an Academic Advisor (AA).i was told tht they are already opened the counter for Add and Drop session at AMF Hall.  i went there and there was a lot of people 'Q'ing everywhere..and i decide to give up.

i headed to Student Development Department (SDD) to received my offer later and fill up couple forms. ya..the night before i was informed tht i gonna be fasilitator for study circle this sem (jd naqibah usrah la).

after tht, i took my brunch (breakfast+lunch) with fh, ni and tas.i listen to fh story as she also the only sister in her class but her story was happy story while i'm not.suddenly , i back to my room as my tears rooling down..

i'm not strong enough to be an engineer.i'm cry on first day.and here i'm, laying on the bed,waiting for next class by 4pm.again, i'm the only sister in class..(T-T)

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kematian itu pasti

bismillahirahmanirrahim..

dgn nikmatNya..aku ingin menulis...

Seringkali kte  menyebut bahawa kte rindu kn kmatian namun cukupkah psediaan kte untuk mhadapinya???

klu saya betulkn persepsi bahawa kte sharusnya takut akn kmatian..YA..TAKUT AKAN KEMATIAN!!

 knape?? bcoz takut sebab banyak nye t/jawab yg x terlaksana..t/jawab dgn Allah,Rasulullah,parenz,siblings,murabbi,quran dan ummah..yes..i'm afraid of death..

analogi yg serba ringkas: spt kte nk exam..b4 melangkah ke dewan tue..mst timbul bbagai perasaan..cuak, neves n etc..sbb ape?? sbb kte rase yg latihan and preparations yg kte wat sblm ni takut x mcukupi..mcm tu lah kmatian..adakh preparations kte selama ini mcukupi..melangkah ke alam barzakh tnp teman..dan mhadapi soaln dari malaikat munkar n nangkir..and the most what i afraid of is..how's ur quran..???

sjujurnya..cdey dan kecewa thadap diri snd coz x mmpu mengingati the whole quran..malu nk mngaku Al-Hafizah..btul..diri ini x masyi spt dulu..waktu di MTS dulu, bole kate ok la..tp skrang..tut..tut..

orang kate klu kte berusaha untuk murajaah walau ckit, Allah akn nilai usaha itu..tp i think what i've done to myself is not enough..not enough to memorize the whole quran..juzu' 5 ke bawah pon belum tentu lg lancar..

That's why i'm really afraid of death..belum campur dosa lain lg..hanye krn Al-quran,cukup menginsafkn diri...

2012 mbuka tirainya..bertambah tahun,smakin singkat waktu untuk beramal,semakin dekat dgn kematian, mgkn x keterlaluan klu mgatakn semakin dekat kiamat...krn kiamat dan kematian kte sudah di tetapkn..

time is thicking..pnuhkn waktu yg ade untuk saving accout akhirat kte byk2..

Salam Muhasabah!!~

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